2 years and still counting!

It is going to be 2 years since the fateful day. The day which was to change my life. Forever.

I cannot not think about the life changing debacle, which has put me in this hapless situation. I try to pen it down. Not because I want to relive those horrific moments which have made me disabled. No. But because I want to know how I was given this second chance. To live.  But the funny thing is I can’t remember it! Not a thing of that fateful day.  May be that’s the way it was supposed to be.

I suppose the accident marks the most defining phase of my life. This phase that I’m going through, is sure teaching me a lot of lessons. I know we all hear people telling us how to value things and value people. And we just listen to them when they say that, smile at them and move on with life. I mean, come on, don’t we all know that?!? Do we really need to hear it from someone? But trust me, when I say this, we don’t.  It’s only when something happens that we realize it. Not that I would want anyone to go through something like this to realize things. No. But I suppose we all need that trigger which prompts us to value things and people a lot more than we actually do. I have. Lesson learnt.

Sure this fall has changed the course of my life. Sure I have realized the value of things, of people and of life in general a lot better now. But it does get depressing. And you can’t help but ask yourself “why me?” But this happens to one of those questions for which there are no answers. Even if you come across something which might be remotely close, it sure as hell wouldn’t please you. I guess that’s one of the mysteries of life. No point in pondering over such ambiguous things. The sooner you come to terms with reality, the better it is.  Lesson learnt.

This fall of mine has surely strengthened the bonds with a lot of people.  Be it parents, or friends or other family members, you sure come to know who form your integral support system. They are the ones who are there for you, by your side, encouraging you, supporting you, giving you the helping hand, lifting you up when you’re down, all along letting you know that they are there for you. The very presence of these people in your life helps you regain your lost strength and confidence. There are others too, who, thanks to their absence, teach you something. That –“In times of prosperity, your friends know you and in times of adversity, you know your friends”. Lesson learnt.

Another positive of this fall is that, I now have a lot of time on hand. To do all that I have always wanted to. Explore myself- my inner strengths, my hidden talents, my flaws, my weaknesses on which I can work on. Now that I have the luxury of time, I might as well make use of it productively to explore a gamut of ideas and interests. In trying times, you have two choices- you can get all bogged down and depressed. Or, you can kick depression and negativity in its rear and stand up taller. Lesson learnt.

Life can change in an instant. Things might be going smoothly and you might be basking in the smoothness of it when you get a sudden jolt which might leave you all shaken. This is when you got to realize that it’s good to hope for the best but even better to be prepared for the worst. Remember, life is under no obligation to give you what you expect. Lesson learnt.

I know that I used to pretty carefree and easy going before the fall. I know that had failed to see the seriousness of a lot of things. I know that I used to take a lot of things for granted. But I suppose it is only because of that, I now can cherish things a lot more and get a better perspective in life. It is only because of what you have gone through, will you know where you want to go and how. Lesson learnt.

But I suppose the most important thing that I have learnt is to trust the Almighty. Having faith in him/her is what will keep you buoyant even when you are drowning.  Believing that he/she has something better in store for you is something which will keep you hoping. Hope begins in the dark; the stubborn hope that if you just show up and push yourselves to do the right thing, the dawn will come. For sure.  For, there is light at the end of every tunnel. Lesson, still learning.

For me, this is a second life.  I survived the first one. And the second one, I know I have to LIVE- to the fullest. CHEERS TO LIFE!!!